We Had Him by Maya Angelou


Beloveds, now we know that we know nothing,
now that our bright and shining star can slip away from our fingertips
like a puff of summer wind.
Without notice, our dear love can escape our doting embrace.

Sing our songs among the stars and walk our dances across the face of the moon.
In the instant that Michael is gone, we know nothing.
No clocks can tell time. No oceans can rush our tides with the abrupt absence of our treasure.
Though we are many, each of us is achingly alone, piercingly alone.

Only when we confess our confusion can we remember that he was a gift to us and we did have him.
He came to us from the creator, trailing creativity in abundance.
Despite the anguish, his life was sheathed in mother love, family love, and survived and did more than that.
He thrived with passion and compassion, humor and style.

We had him whether we know who he was or did not know, he was ours and we were his.
We had him, beautiful, delighting our eyes.
His hat, aslant over his brow, and took a pose on his toes for all of us.
And we laughed and stomped our feet for him.

We were enchanted with his passion because he held nothing.
He gave us all he had been given.
Today in Tokyo, beneath the Eiffel Tower, in Ghana’s Black Star Square.
In Johannesburg and Pittsburgh, in Birmingham, Alabama, and Birmingham, England; we are missing Michael.

But we do know we had him, and we are the world.

July 7th, 2009.



Letanía De Mis Defectos – Pita Amor

Soy vanidosa, déspota, blasfema,
Soberbia, altiva, ingrata, desdeñosa;
pero conservo aún la tez de rosa.

La lumbre del infierno a mí me quema.
Es de cristal cortado mi sistema.
Soy ególatra, fría, tumultuosa.
Me quiebro frágil como mariposa.

Yo misma he construido mi anatema.
Soy perversa, malvada, vengativa.
Es prestada mi sangre y fugitiva.

Mis pensamientos son muy taciturnos.
Mis sueños de pecado son nocturnos.
Soy histérica, loca desquiciada;
pero a la eternidad ya sentenciada.

This Christmas Without You

By EarthMother

The nights are getting longer

The sun is barely here

The weather is cold and frosty

So Christmas must be near

Twinkling lights will start appearing

Holly and Tinsel here and there

Santa Wish Lists will be written

By excited children everywhere

But for me there will be no Turkey

Decorations will stay packed away

No Mistletoe to be kissed under

For me this Christmas Day

No Christmas Morning smiles

As we wake to greet the morn’

No special gifts for each other

With fancy wrappings to be torn

My day will be filled with memories

With sadness and with tears

With remembering Happy Christmas’s

Spent together in previous years

This year will be the first Christmas

I have to spend alone without you

So it will not be Happy and Jolly

Just very empty, sad and blue.

But deep down I know you’ll be with me

I will feel your presence when I am blue

I will smile when I remember some silly times

And the twinkling eyes that were uniquely you.

So I am not looking forward to this Christmas

I know I will be feeling oh so blue
But I know it is something I have to live through
This very first Christmas without you!